一些思索

人生永远站在岔路口,只有走过了很远,再回头看看才发现,哦,原来走错了,已经跑偏了好长一段。可惜有时候没有那份勇气,硬着头皮越走越远,只能安慰自己还是看到了一些不一样的风景。

永远都不要把选择交到别人手里,也不要无限的妥协,换来的除了不在乎冷暴力还有更难堪的境地。真正值得人尊重的永远是自控和积极的正能量。一个女性,永远不应该因为性别优势而在金钱上占了男性的便宜而得意洋洋。”她那时候还太年轻,不知道所有命运赠送的礼物,早已在暗中标好了价格。“

不要因为周围的人都很差而沾沾自喜,这样都做不到最好当然是存在很多的问题的。比如口语上,比如跟老师交流上,还有时间规划上,与组员的沟通上。环境当然重要,名校最大的意义就是提供了好的人脉资源和眼界。真的很怀念ACM这个圈子里,那么多优秀的小伙伴。有时候突然关注一下他们的动态,就发现他们已经走的太远了,而我被远远地甩在了后面。

以前会很羡慕有些人全世界到处玩,有些人可以随便买奢侈品包包和鞋子。会很羡慕,有时候看似云淡风轻在知乎写下的话,其实是我自己也做不到的决心。可是我也在一点一点积累自己的资本,像贪恋的鸟一样,叼了很多东西藏在窝里。想要的东西依旧很多,不能放弃努力。我要的都是最好的。

 

My Failure on WHV

I don't want to complain about it any more and it is truly annoying that I have to explain this to my friends when they ask what happened.

First, I have to admit that it is my fault that I didn't achieve band 6 for each item in the IELTS exams. That means I would miss the entrance of my school in the end of July. At the same time, Chad's student visa was under process due to the low efficiency of immigration officer. I was not so sure that it would be approved but he insisted that he would pass it. As a result, he convinced me to apply for the WHV since I was definitely qualified for its rules and then I could take the IELTS exams and support myself via legal part-time job in NZ. How attractive it was! It turned out to be a torture in the following two months which both us could not imagine.

As so many people would apply for it on the website and the competition is fiercely each year, the condition of Internet would be worst at the application time. It's not possible to read all the rules at that time. Chad searched online for tips regarding application and followed them to fill other countries' form using my information as practice. He was lucky to pick up Thailand at the first time since after clicking the submit button he could delete it until he paid for the application fee. So it mislead him that his practice on other countries was OK and didn't have any negative effect. At one day before the application, he filled the forms via using Finland's form to auto-fill all the information so that he wouldn't type all the words later on. However, some developed countries like Finland, Japan and America etc. don't need the application fee and if you submit your application, you will never delete it ever. Chad was worried and made a international call to the NZ immigration office. He was told that it would not affect my application to Chinese WHV. It seems that the website updated with conspicuous fonts to warn everyone not to use other countries' form to practice not long before the Chinese WHV was opened for applicants. Chad was in charge of my application and I didn't pay much attention to the details.

After I got the quota and waited for two weeks, I didn't feel well about it. Someone shared a case on Douban WHV group that a Chinese guy's Finland application was approved and he got a reject on his real application. I added a QQ group and found a lot of guys who had the similar experience. We witnessed a lot together in the endless two months. Although it is not allowed to use any code scripts to get the quota and if you are not a legal adviser, you cannot charge for money and agent for other's application. Unfortunately it has happened in China. The agencies abused each other and made fake information to get new clients. Someone argued rudely with the people who got the quota but gave up it anyway. So many people want to be an intending immigrant and count on WHV to get a work visa. What's worse, someone increase the immigration officers workload via complaining phone calls and emails of selfish disposition. And I don't think it is suitable for people to laugh at others' dreams after being approved of WHV. Part of Chinese people tend to get pretty angry and impolite online. After rejected by the immigration officer, some applicants put their experience online and got much abuse. I feel so awful about all of this. For my perspective, it is a careless mistake but someone attacked people like me by commenting brainless, stupid, and dishonest etc.

I want to apologise for my inappropriate intension of WHV. I mean I wanted to pass my IELTS exam. The refusal has definitely unknown, horrible and negative influence on me. I suppose it is my punishment. I have to try hard to reduce it. I wrote this in English because I don't want to disturbed by vicious Chinese cyber citizens. That's all. My apology again.

Empire State of Mind

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I've learned something these days which I've tried to remember in my mind.
1.Don't judge people. It is important to reverse my own idea and prejudice about others. As a matter of fact, it's easy to hurt or humiliate people even it's not in purpose.
2.As the saying goes, 'First they ignore me, then they ridicule me, then they attack me, then I win.'. There's no need to care about all the rumors and slanders, because they are the true losers comparing with me.
3.I still have a long way on learning English and pass my exam. It's very meaningful.

食在北京

在北京混了这么久,到处吃吃喝喝,总感觉吃的时候人要多,可以多点些菜品尝。

大众点评在大城市比较靠谱好用,尤其是知道一个店名的时候,缺点是可能有些小店直接在地图上不会显示出来,比如你去旅游城市密集的小吃区就比较崩溃。

继续阅读

关于学英语的小心得

报新东方的班报了两次,一次是去年10月份,上了个6.5分的大班,很多人。听说读写四位老师都是十八般武艺,虽然是七点就扛着眼皮赶着八点去上课,但是居然一点都不困不想睡觉,真是奇迹。大约是老师都很有气质而且也很风趣,经历也颇为丰富。后来就是今年三月底四月初,上了一次7分小班,居然只有五个女生,而且有一个经常缺课,也算是享受了下vip待遇。来新东方教的主要是复习的方法,确实觉得很有收获,不仅仅书本上的东西,比如生活感悟和人生成长。如果能持之以恒按老师方法复习,在卷面上能拿到一个很好看的分数了,而且本身英语水平也会得到提高。但可惜大部分人只停留在上课的时候信心满满热血沸腾了,下了课后就消极怠工了。

早知如此,在大学时候就应该去上英语课啊。大学时候的英语课选了不少,上了跟没上完全无差。大一时候就过了四级六级,可惜分都不太高,而且刷了两次毫无改观,实在是大失所望,打击了学英语的自尊心,不过也说明了整个大学过去英语水平不升也不降。然后就是考研的英语,刷了好几本书最后考成鸟样,实在让人一口老血吐出来,晚节不保。最后我想通,不怪我,实在是他们出题想法太刁钻古怪,毕竟是中国人。

回顾漫漫学英语路,总是要高二到高三时候的英语老师骂个半死,毫无真材实料,误人子弟。学习这个东西,环境实在太重要了,有个好老师太重要了。千万不要相信家长鬼扯的老师不好,自己学也是一样的。一个好老师点拨一下受用半生毫无虚言。所以当你不幸遇到一个不好的老师的时候,你的选择就是找一个好老师,不管是上家教还是啥的,自己摸索是很愚蠢的行为。虽然我默默刷题的结果就是高考时候英语考的还不错,但是只是练就了一副哑巴英语。

所幸雅思英语是个很规规矩矩的考试,老外的思路都很规矩,没有那么多花花肠子。比如很多题目都是遵循顺序性原则的。

关于学习英语这个事情,有太多误会。比如睡觉前或者跑步时候听听力,企图营造一个英语环境,结果就是如同听着日语或者粤语歌一样的背景音乐,一点都没有用。做听力就好好做,一份听力40分钟,集中注意力,我老是在走神,结果就遍地开花错一大堆,还老抓不住数字字母。做听力材料的听写可以显著提升听力。其实听力的文本并没有多少单词,只是容易被弱读、连读、插入语和信息密集等情况干扰。提高短期记忆能力,熟悉口音发音规则很重要。

还有一个误会就是背单词,背你妹的单词,多少人说了从来不背单词,为什么?背了也不会用,背了最多看了英文能想的到中文,给中文的话,很少能想的起对应的中文,无论是开口说和写作都用不到。背那么多奇奇怪怪的词干什么,外国人多用的词组和固定搭配。什么单词书啊,还有各种网站单词和app都可以退散了,妄想借助它们利用起碎片时间来提高英语水平就是too young too simple。如果觉得一个词好,那就把它所在的整句话都记住。

这样看起来把新概念三的课文背的滚瓜烂熟实在十分有必要。以前尝试过背诵,但是贪图进度,导致前面背了后面忘,里面有很多好用的词和词组及句子都没有消化。

对于口语这件事,拿什么拯救你。我的发音简直一塌糊涂,而且经常发错或者发不清楚,然后就是一个字一个字蹦出来,不知道连读和音调。我现在唯一的想法就是,keep talking就好。讲话的时候要有逻辑性,这是英文跟中文不一样的地方,比如递、转折、因果等连词要体现出来。这种事情也必须有意识下功夫才好,看美剧和英文电影,还是先欣赏剧情吧,能记住个别单词已经很厉害的,其他的不做多想。永远不要觉得,学英语是可以随随便便顺便搭上的一件事情。

关于作文这个事情,不要宁做三篇阅读也不肯写一篇作文。把考官写的范文收集成自己的素材很重要。要做到想表达一个观点,出来的不是中文的句子,然后逐字逐句翻译出来,而是金光闪闪、肥瘦得体的英文就真的炼就神功了。联系到我自己写语文的作文,从小学起我就开始在小本子上摘抄句子,写作业必翻阅查找灵感,道理相通。

三月赋闲

北京的天气及时是三月绽新绿桃红也依旧灰蒙蒙的让人爱不起来。

自从辞职了窝在家以后,工作压力的包袱丢了,再也不感觉头疼失眠,似乎连抑郁症的阴云都退散了。不吃任何奇怪的药,描好眉眼花裙子再出门。有时候有心情做饭,或者叫外卖,屯一堆零食在家,看电影和小说。

最近运气有点背,在温泉的换衣间摔碎了一瓶化妆水。接着就是昨天去领听课证的时候,在街上晃荡晃荡然后就发现手机掉了,一拨打过去已是关机。猫咪先森立马给我换了新的,然后加上新的pro一台,感激涕零。喵咪先森不让我乱花钱,默默扛下了所有的开销,这种心安理得的感觉是怎么回事。

一个朋友给我寄了一只薰衣草小熊,后来才知道喵咪先森已经定了一样的一只,但是出于surprise没有告诉我。虽然也会耍脾气,但是事后便觉俗不可耐。也许这俗世,我们就这样一路红尘十里桃花,再不记得过去的悲伤与纠葛,风生水起的故事叫简单与快乐。